I went in for my pap smear and blood work last Friday the 8th. My doctor wasn't in at all last week (though I was aware) and she told me that someone from the office would be calling me to review my results. About Wednesday afternoon, I missed a call from one of the other doctor's nurses (each doctor is assigned one nurse at their office) and left a voicemail saying to call her back. It was already too late, so I left a message. Next morning, nothing. Afternoon, and still nothing.
Then the next morning while showering, I noticed it.
One that shouldn't be there.
By late evening, I was starting to worry.
I called again Friday morning and decided to talk to my own doctor's nurse about getting the results from my labs, and she told me they hadn't been transcribed yet. I asked if there was something I should know right away about my results and told me I'd have to schedule an appointment with my doctor to review. So I scheduled for the next available date.
I felt depressed, scared, frustrated and anxious. My heart beat faster than normal, and I was uncomfortable.
This is not how I wanted to start the New Year.
Thoughts flying through my head.
Am I being punished for BEG?
Is it even possible?
The weekend was dreadful, and Sebastian knew something wasn't right, but was completely calm and supportive of my inability to say what I felt was wrong. I never told him I had found a bump. I worried that he would freak out. Let's face it, I can't tell him what's wrong about something I don't know.
For now, all I can do is wait for my appointment...... and hope that the anxiety doesn't give me away.
[update 1/20/10: "Lab Results" ]